Email to a friend…(with minor edits)
I’m confused right now. I feel like I want to return to South Asia SO BAD. I haven’t felt like this for the past year or so. I think I’m finally over my burn-out from my last project. I actually WANT to come back here and LIVE.
I want to sweat, I want to shiver. I want to get sick. I want to eat rice twice a day. I want to have no electricity. I want to feel dirty. I want to know the shopkeeper and his family. I want to drink tea. I could go on. Okay, I guess I don’t really want to get sick, but I guess I feel willing to…even knowing what it means, and how it feels.
I have to ‘get back out there’ – in South Asia (or somewhere!) and really THRIVE.
I haven’t been as happy as I am right now in a long time. I feel so content, and so joyful. I smile and laugh a lot.
I want to cry having rediscovered this deep part of me that has been suppressed for the past year due to being burnt-out before… It’s like I’m finding that passion, that excitement that kept me alive before. It’s wonderful.
I didn’t realize how gone it was, until I got it back!!
And yet- I don’t know what it means. Does it really mean, come back to S. Asia? I mean, say, in the next several months? What does it really mean? Practically? Does it mean taking a new assignment somewhere? What would it look like? What do I do with these thoughts? Where do I funnel this passion and excitement?
Anyway, these are just journal thoughts here, friend- I may write a blog about it, we’ll see…… – thanks for listening, and for praying….
Well – I hope you are feeling better and the boys are doing well.
Back to checking stories for now……