|Cookies for my cousins...or...for me?|
Yesterday was Day 28 (of Whole30).
I have a confession.
There's no way around it. Last night, I ruined my whole30 diet.
I ate 3 spoonfuls...yes, spoonfuls of incredibly delectable raw chocolate chip cookie dough.
It was completely cheating and I can't believe I did it.
But, it was insanely scrumptious.
To die for.
And in the moment had absolutely no regrets.
I do now, of course.
How could I only have 2 days left of a 30 day diet, and just flat out ruin it in 5 minutes?
Well, I did.
I learned first hand is that it's really easy to mess up something really quickly.
But that's not even the worst of it.
All month long, I've assumed that I am doing a good thing depriving myself of peanut butter and training myself to settle for sunflower seed butter.
That would have been okay except that the sunflower seed butter I have been eating nearly every other day has SUGAR in it! What!? I don't know how I missed it.
But I did.
So, I have been unconsciously cheating on my whole30 diet almost since the beginning. #areyouserious #epicfail
On the way to church this morning, I listed the ways I failed the diet.
Jason said, "Why can't we focus on all the good thing that happened over the past 28 days?"
|"evaporated cane syrup" = sugar = not compliant|
I said, "Because I wanted perfection. And that didn't happen."
Story of my life.
I strive for perfection.
This isn't necessarily a bad thing.
It is just an impossible thing.
Nothing can ever be entirely perfect here.
Everything is flawed.
Everything is tainted.
When will I submit this frustrating reality to the Lord and lean on His perfection in my weakness?
I'm sure it will take a lifetime to grasp this.
Knowing that the past 28 days haven't been perfect and the next 30 won't be either:
I am starting a new round of whole30 tomorrow (Monday March 14).
Thanks for following a bit of my journey and for encouraging me in the next round!!